Things just don't seem to be getting any easier. I sometimes feel like I'm in an old three stooges skit and I keep getting slapped over and over again. That's what it feels like in my spirit anyway. Man being a Christian is hard work. I remember way back when I first gave my life to Christ I thought everything was going to be a piece of cake. Wow was I wrong you don't see cake on the menu very often. (:0)
I thought life was hard before I became a Christian it's nothing compared to after I became a Christian. Not that I wouldn't do it again in a heart beat God has been with me every step of the way. Before I became a Christian the enemy wanted to keep me from learning the truth and now he wants to keep me from living it.
I've been listening to some wonderful teaching tapes and they reminded me that you always know you're on the right path and close to a major breakthrough when life starts heating up. Well my life is hotter then the temperature outside. It has been one major attack since the first part of June. Well I don't care what the enemy does I won't be stopped. I may be crying, kicking and screaming but I will keep moving forward.
I think the hardest thing lately has been every time I step out in a direction that I think is right I hit a wall. I am stopped dead in my tracks. It's almost like trying to walk through a maze.
I need the floodgates of heaven to open. I need the water to wash over me and soak into every pore. I am so thirsty which sounds contradictory since I have all of this inside that I want to share and there never seems to be enough people to share it with. (:0)
So here I sit writing hoping that I can say something that may touch the heart of someone else. Maybe you're going through a difficult time too. I just want you to know you are not alone. No matter what life is throwing at you right now stand firm. God won't let you down. Believe with all your heart and don't let go of the truth that lies with-in you. "We are more then conquerors through Christ who loves us." We are unbeatable and unstoppable, through the power of God.
Maybe I don't have all the answers but I'm hanging on with everything I got to the one who does. It's almost like when I was little and would fall asleep on the couch and Dad would come and pick me up and carry me to bed. I didn't need to open my eyes or see through the darkness Daddy had me and everything was alright.
I know the dawn is approaching and the light is going to come flooding through. I know life is going to be better then it ever has been before and that the latter part will outshine the former. I can see it, it's beginning to crest the far hill soon it will be here...
Until We Meet Again....God Bless
Monday, July 26, 2010
Saturday, July 17, 2010
Time To Get Up
I sometimes get mad at myself because I don't handle things like someone else. And actually people have gotten angry at me. I've come to realize I need to stop beating myself up for being me. I am not like anyone else I am just me.
I'm not going to beat you over the head with your faults. Must of us are well aware of what are shortcomings are and don't need to be told. I'm going to love you and encourage you as best I can but I won't be in your face a lot. Yes, I will be praying for you but I realize in the end it is up to you to find your own way. If you need me I will be there. If you ask my advice I will honestly tell you... But don't ask if you don't want to know. (:0)
I don't need to be told that I'm special or important in your life, well maybe every once in awhile, but I don't like to be taken for granted either. It's easier for me to give then receive. Although some may think I give very little. You can't put love in a box or a mold and make it come out just one certain way. Love has many avenues and genres. What looks like love to one person may not even be noticed by someone else.
We are all unique and special in our own way and corporately we make up the body. All our differences need to be embraced and refined to enhance it.
I guess maybe I walk a little off the beaten path but that's how I like it. I like quiet and solitude. Oh, I love to laugh and have a great time too but I cherish my alone time with God most of all.
I need to be continually striving to get closer to Him. To hear His voice clearer. I want to lose myself in His presence so that the world only sees Him.
I want the world to know that life is deeper then our pocket book. It is larger then where we live and higher then any corporate ladder. All of the outside trappings is nothing but a mask hiding the truth distracting us from what is truly real. If we aren't careful we may live our whole life and never see the truth.
Me, I think sometimes it's my job to give a shout now and again. Kind of like the alarm clock going off at 6:00 in the morning. You don't want to hear it but you need too. You can hit the snooze button all you want but that alarm will keep coming back on so you might as well get up.
I want you to get up. I want you to reach your full potential. I don't want you to waste a second. You are so special and so important to God. You are loved beyond measure. What happened last year, last month or ten minutes ago is gone. Each second is a new beginning. You don't have to wait until New Years to make a resolution. You can do it now.
What you do is important and serves as a catalyst for all those around you. You are special, You are loved. Today this second is a new beginning. Take it and run with it. The world is waiting. The body can use the spin you can put on it... The spit and polish. Go for it live your dreams. We will be waiting.
Until We Meet Again...........God Bless
I'm not going to beat you over the head with your faults. Must of us are well aware of what are shortcomings are and don't need to be told. I'm going to love you and encourage you as best I can but I won't be in your face a lot. Yes, I will be praying for you but I realize in the end it is up to you to find your own way. If you need me I will be there. If you ask my advice I will honestly tell you... But don't ask if you don't want to know. (:0)
I don't need to be told that I'm special or important in your life, well maybe every once in awhile, but I don't like to be taken for granted either. It's easier for me to give then receive. Although some may think I give very little. You can't put love in a box or a mold and make it come out just one certain way. Love has many avenues and genres. What looks like love to one person may not even be noticed by someone else.
We are all unique and special in our own way and corporately we make up the body. All our differences need to be embraced and refined to enhance it.
I guess maybe I walk a little off the beaten path but that's how I like it. I like quiet and solitude. Oh, I love to laugh and have a great time too but I cherish my alone time with God most of all.
I need to be continually striving to get closer to Him. To hear His voice clearer. I want to lose myself in His presence so that the world only sees Him.
I want the world to know that life is deeper then our pocket book. It is larger then where we live and higher then any corporate ladder. All of the outside trappings is nothing but a mask hiding the truth distracting us from what is truly real. If we aren't careful we may live our whole life and never see the truth.
Me, I think sometimes it's my job to give a shout now and again. Kind of like the alarm clock going off at 6:00 in the morning. You don't want to hear it but you need too. You can hit the snooze button all you want but that alarm will keep coming back on so you might as well get up.
I want you to get up. I want you to reach your full potential. I don't want you to waste a second. You are so special and so important to God. You are loved beyond measure. What happened last year, last month or ten minutes ago is gone. Each second is a new beginning. You don't have to wait until New Years to make a resolution. You can do it now.
What you do is important and serves as a catalyst for all those around you. You are special, You are loved. Today this second is a new beginning. Take it and run with it. The world is waiting. The body can use the spin you can put on it... The spit and polish. Go for it live your dreams. We will be waiting.
Until We Meet Again...........God Bless
Saturday, July 10, 2010
The Battle
Do you ever get so tired you think there is no way you can possibly go on? At every turn there seems to be a battle but yet at the same time you know you are surrounded by something much bigger then yourself...God. This is the way it has been for me lately. Everything is a battle. My body grows weaker and weaker my perseverance grows thin but yet somehow I continue. Inside of me is that still small voice that says, "Keep going don't give up all will work out just as I have planned."
So I keep putting one foot in front of the other. I keep walking. I keep praying. I keep listening. Most of all I keep believing that everything God has placed in my heart will come to pass. I believe I am very close to seeing my dreams become reality and that is why the battle is heating up.
Do I think I am greater then anyone else, of course not. I'm only wanting to follow the path that God has placed in my heart nothing more. We all have a destiny outlined by God. It's up to us whether we choose to live for Him or ourselves. There lies the battle and the enemy preys on our humanity.
Here is where our love and faith come into play. Here is where we have to decide to live by what we see or what we believe. Even in my weakest moment I have come to realize that believing even without no outward sign is always the right course of action. That doesn't mean there won't be days of doubts but God knows are weaknesses and He said He would strengthen us. Who we are... how we act... does not come as a surprise to God. After all he created us.
I know by Gods grace I will get through this battle as I have come through the battles of the past. Not because I am strong but because God is gracious and I know, "The battle is not mine but Gods."
Until We Meet Again.....God Bless
So I keep putting one foot in front of the other. I keep walking. I keep praying. I keep listening. Most of all I keep believing that everything God has placed in my heart will come to pass. I believe I am very close to seeing my dreams become reality and that is why the battle is heating up.
Do I think I am greater then anyone else, of course not. I'm only wanting to follow the path that God has placed in my heart nothing more. We all have a destiny outlined by God. It's up to us whether we choose to live for Him or ourselves. There lies the battle and the enemy preys on our humanity.
Here is where our love and faith come into play. Here is where we have to decide to live by what we see or what we believe. Even in my weakest moment I have come to realize that believing even without no outward sign is always the right course of action. That doesn't mean there won't be days of doubts but God knows are weaknesses and He said He would strengthen us. Who we are... how we act... does not come as a surprise to God. After all he created us.
I know by Gods grace I will get through this battle as I have come through the battles of the past. Not because I am strong but because God is gracious and I know, "The battle is not mine but Gods."
Until We Meet Again.....God Bless
Sunday, June 27, 2010
I Will Succeed
Things have been very quiet the last couple of days, kind of like the calm before the storm. I've been searching and praying. I only have one life to live and I want to try and keep it moving in the right direction. Lately that hasn't been easy. It seems like every time I take a step out I am bombarded with opposition. I don't know about you but I believe that means I am on the right track. I just wonder how long before the fog rises and the sun comes through and I see before me what I see in my heart.
God says, "that faith is believing without seeing." I can see it just not in the natural. It is imprinted on my heart like an internal photograph that hasn't faded but grows clearer with time. As each day goes by I realize the things that are real are the things that can not been seen with the eye.
I look at the world around me and realize that it is just temporal. What is inside of me will go on forever. No one can take it away from me, no one can destroy it. They can try but it is deeply rooted and entwined into all that I am no matter what my circumstances in life become.
The spirit and mind are so powerful and when God is allowed to be the head of your life you can not be stopped... Love, hope, peace, joy, dreams will go on forever. Prayers will continue to be answered long after we are gone.
I pray that my family know they are loved beyond measure. May the world know I have tried to live my life for one sole purpose to reflect Jesus Christ and the love of God. All of my earthly relationships stem from this one magnificent one. May my words be filled with kindness and be uplifting. My work show my dedication to God and may I generously share as God gives to me.
My life will not depend on the world around me but what I know is the truth that "through God we will do valiantly." Through the eyes of the world I might never be deemed a success but through the eyes of God I will have succeeded and completed my journey.
Until We Meet Again....God Bless
God says, "that faith is believing without seeing." I can see it just not in the natural. It is imprinted on my heart like an internal photograph that hasn't faded but grows clearer with time. As each day goes by I realize the things that are real are the things that can not been seen with the eye.
I look at the world around me and realize that it is just temporal. What is inside of me will go on forever. No one can take it away from me, no one can destroy it. They can try but it is deeply rooted and entwined into all that I am no matter what my circumstances in life become.
The spirit and mind are so powerful and when God is allowed to be the head of your life you can not be stopped... Love, hope, peace, joy, dreams will go on forever. Prayers will continue to be answered long after we are gone.
I pray that my family know they are loved beyond measure. May the world know I have tried to live my life for one sole purpose to reflect Jesus Christ and the love of God. All of my earthly relationships stem from this one magnificent one. May my words be filled with kindness and be uplifting. My work show my dedication to God and may I generously share as God gives to me.
My life will not depend on the world around me but what I know is the truth that "through God we will do valiantly." Through the eyes of the world I might never be deemed a success but through the eyes of God I will have succeeded and completed my journey.
Until We Meet Again....God Bless
Monday, June 14, 2010
Today I Was Invisable
How do we become invisible? I didn't use to be invisible. I know once you could see me. Maybe people projected onto me what they thought I should be and between them and myself I got buried. Buried in some truths and half truths, peoples expectations, as well as, my own pain and sorrow, like a ton of earth over me.
I became a daughter, granddaughter, wife, mother, friend, worker, coworker, the list is endless. All of these people, all of these parts I have played. Where am I? If I am the sum total of all my parts how do they all fit? Where is the window that allows the world and myself to see me once again. I am more then the roles I play. More then the labels that society has encrypted upon me. Take me back to the beginning. I need to see me again.......
I feel the dirt beneath my fingernails as I try to claw myself to the surface to the light once again. The dirt covers my eyes and I can taste it and feel the dampness on my skin. I finally reach the surface. The brightness of the light shines upon me. It seems to be coming from everywhere. I hear the laughter of small children and feel the soft grass beneath my feet. I hear the wind blowing through the trees. There are flowers everywhere. They see me, everything sees me because of the light. There is joy on all their faces and their laughter is like a beautiful melody going on forever. I am seen. Maybe not in this world but I am seen and it is beautiful....
I realize once again that it is not important if the world sees me only that God sees me. To God I am never invisible...There is never any confusion. I know that this world is not my home. I am just here for a short while. I have seen a glimpse of home again and I am full of light. I am visible once again. My spirit soars for my hope has been renewed and I will continue the journey.
Until We Meet Again.......God Bless
I became a daughter, granddaughter, wife, mother, friend, worker, coworker, the list is endless. All of these people, all of these parts I have played. Where am I? If I am the sum total of all my parts how do they all fit? Where is the window that allows the world and myself to see me once again. I am more then the roles I play. More then the labels that society has encrypted upon me. Take me back to the beginning. I need to see me again.......
I feel the dirt beneath my fingernails as I try to claw myself to the surface to the light once again. The dirt covers my eyes and I can taste it and feel the dampness on my skin. I finally reach the surface. The brightness of the light shines upon me. It seems to be coming from everywhere. I hear the laughter of small children and feel the soft grass beneath my feet. I hear the wind blowing through the trees. There are flowers everywhere. They see me, everything sees me because of the light. There is joy on all their faces and their laughter is like a beautiful melody going on forever. I am seen. Maybe not in this world but I am seen and it is beautiful....
I realize once again that it is not important if the world sees me only that God sees me. To God I am never invisible...There is never any confusion. I know that this world is not my home. I am just here for a short while. I have seen a glimpse of home again and I am full of light. I am visible once again. My spirit soars for my hope has been renewed and I will continue the journey.
Until We Meet Again.......God Bless
Friday, June 11, 2010
Changing Seasons
I've been thinking a lot about changes and seasons in our lives. Some people we try so hard to hold onto but they still seem to drift away. I finally realized that's alright. It's like trying to hold onto a snowflake. The relationship changes just as the snowflake melts and becomes water. Know matter how hard we try to hold on to them they quickly seem to run through our fingers.
I have met a lot of wonderful people that have been in my life for just a season or two. They played a vital role in my journey and I will always remember them.
God pretty much has to slap me up side of the head from time to time to let me know a season is over. (:0) I still keep trying to make it work and He is saying no it's time to move on. That's what He seems to be doing lately. He is being very persistent I keep hearing, "I've been trying to tell you it's a new season can't you see it. Old things have passed away and all things have become new." But I get use to the old, the familiar; after all sometimes change hurts and growth is never easy.
Today I have decided to embrace this new season in my life. I can't wait to see what will happen and who God will bring into my life. I am not going to be afraid. I will have no regrets. I will love with an open heart and an open hand always allowing those I meet on my path walk beside me freely as God directs. There are no strings attached to my love... No giant expectations that have to be met. Freely God has given me His love and freely I will pour it out to others.
Change is good for us. If we are changing we are moving. I plan to keep moving down this road God prepared for me. I may stop and rest from time to time. May pick a flower and enjoy a sunset but like a child I will eventually make it home.
Until We Meet Again......God Bless
I have met a lot of wonderful people that have been in my life for just a season or two. They played a vital role in my journey and I will always remember them.
God pretty much has to slap me up side of the head from time to time to let me know a season is over. (:0) I still keep trying to make it work and He is saying no it's time to move on. That's what He seems to be doing lately. He is being very persistent I keep hearing, "I've been trying to tell you it's a new season can't you see it. Old things have passed away and all things have become new." But I get use to the old, the familiar; after all sometimes change hurts and growth is never easy.
Today I have decided to embrace this new season in my life. I can't wait to see what will happen and who God will bring into my life. I am not going to be afraid. I will have no regrets. I will love with an open heart and an open hand always allowing those I meet on my path walk beside me freely as God directs. There are no strings attached to my love... No giant expectations that have to be met. Freely God has given me His love and freely I will pour it out to others.
Change is good for us. If we are changing we are moving. I plan to keep moving down this road God prepared for me. I may stop and rest from time to time. May pick a flower and enjoy a sunset but like a child I will eventually make it home.
Until We Meet Again......God Bless
Monday, June 7, 2010
Making A Memorable Moment
It was a beautiful sunny Sunday afternoon. All the family had gathered at my Grandparents house. Their house was small so we had made our way out to the side yard with chairs and blankets. The adults were talking and the kids were running and playing. It was a lazy wonderful day that I never wanted to forget.
I remember laying on my belly on a home made quilt of my Grandmothers. I lifted my head and stared out before me. I had such a peace and I wanted to remember the day forever. I pulled up a blade of grass and put it between my thumbs and stared at it trying to burn it in my memory. I kept repeating, "I want to remember today forever."
I don't know why I thought I needed to remember that one day out of so many previous ones but for some reason it was important to me. I couldn't tell you the exact date on the calendar or even my exact age, although I believe I was eight at the time, only the feelings I had about that day. I don't think I have ever felt that way again.
For one sunny afternoon all the cares of the world drained completely away and left only the feeling of belonging, acceptance and love. All those feelings pure and untainted from this world. I believe for a brief moment I experience a touch of heaven.
I think about the warmth of Gods radiant love, the feeling of acceptance and knowing you are home. Having completed your journey with the weariness of the world left behind forever.
I believe someday I will experience that feeling again and it will not just last for one sunny Sunday afternoon but for eternity. I look forward to that day. My heart is filled with promise because of Jesus and one sunny Sunday afternoon so long ago.
Until We Meet Again.......God Bless
I remember laying on my belly on a home made quilt of my Grandmothers. I lifted my head and stared out before me. I had such a peace and I wanted to remember the day forever. I pulled up a blade of grass and put it between my thumbs and stared at it trying to burn it in my memory. I kept repeating, "I want to remember today forever."
I don't know why I thought I needed to remember that one day out of so many previous ones but for some reason it was important to me. I couldn't tell you the exact date on the calendar or even my exact age, although I believe I was eight at the time, only the feelings I had about that day. I don't think I have ever felt that way again.
For one sunny afternoon all the cares of the world drained completely away and left only the feeling of belonging, acceptance and love. All those feelings pure and untainted from this world. I believe for a brief moment I experience a touch of heaven.
I think about the warmth of Gods radiant love, the feeling of acceptance and knowing you are home. Having completed your journey with the weariness of the world left behind forever.
I believe someday I will experience that feeling again and it will not just last for one sunny Sunday afternoon but for eternity. I look forward to that day. My heart is filled with promise because of Jesus and one sunny Sunday afternoon so long ago.
Until We Meet Again.......God Bless
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