Monday, July 26, 2010

A New Dawn

Things just don't seem to be getting any easier. I sometimes feel like I'm in an old three stooges skit and I keep getting slapped over and over again. That's what it feels like in my spirit anyway. Man being a Christian is hard work. I remember way back when I first gave my life to Christ I thought everything was going to be a piece of cake. Wow was I wrong you don't see cake on the menu very often. (:0)

I thought life was hard before I became a Christian it's nothing compared to after I became a Christian. Not that I wouldn't do it again in a heart beat God has been with me every step of the way. Before I became a Christian the enemy wanted to keep me from learning the truth and now he wants to keep me from living it.

I've been listening to some wonderful teaching tapes and they reminded me that you always know you're on the right path and close to a major breakthrough when life starts heating up. Well my life is hotter then the temperature outside. It has been one major attack since the first part of June. Well I don't care what the enemy does I won't be stopped. I may be crying, kicking and screaming but I will keep moving forward.

I think the hardest thing lately has been every time I step out in a direction that I think is right I hit a wall. I am stopped dead in my tracks. It's almost like trying to walk through a maze.

I need the floodgates of heaven to open. I need the water to wash over me and soak into every pore. I am so thirsty which sounds contradictory since I have all of this inside that I want to share and there never seems to be enough people to share it with. (:0)

So here I sit writing hoping that I can say something that may touch the heart of someone else. Maybe you're going through a difficult time too. I just want you to know you are not alone. No matter what life is throwing at you right now stand firm. God won't let you down. Believe with all your heart and don't let go of the truth that lies with-in you. "We are more then conquerors through Christ who loves us." We are unbeatable and unstoppable, through the power of God.

Maybe I don't have all the answers but I'm hanging on with everything I got to the one who does. It's almost like when I was little and would fall asleep on the couch and Dad would come and pick me up and carry me to bed. I didn't need to open my eyes or see through the darkness Daddy had me and everything was alright.

I know the dawn is approaching and the light is going to come flooding through. I know life is going to be better then it ever has been before and that the latter part will outshine the former. I can see it, it's beginning to crest the far hill soon it will be here...

Until We Meet Again....God Bless

Saturday, July 17, 2010

Time To Get Up

I sometimes get mad at myself because I don't handle things like someone else. And actually people have gotten angry at me. I've come to realize I need to stop beating myself up for being me. I am not like anyone else I am just me.

I'm not going to beat you over the head with your faults. Must of us are well aware of what are shortcomings are and don't need to be told. I'm going to love you and encourage you as best I can but I won't be in your face a lot. Yes, I will be praying for you but I realize in the end it is up to you to find your own way. If you need me I will be there. If you ask my advice I will honestly tell you... But don't ask if you don't want to know. (:0)

I don't need to be told that I'm special or important in your life, well maybe every once in awhile, but I don't like to be taken for granted either. It's easier for me to give then receive. Although some may think I give very little. You can't put love in a box or a mold and make it come out just one certain way. Love has many avenues and genres. What looks like love to one person may not even be noticed by someone else.

We are all unique and special in our own way and corporately we make up the body. All our differences need to be embraced and refined to enhance it.

I guess maybe I walk a little off the beaten path but that's how I like it. I like quiet and solitude. Oh, I love to laugh and have a great time too but I cherish my alone time with God most of all.

I need to be continually striving to get closer to Him. To hear His voice clearer. I want to lose myself in His presence so that the world only sees Him.

I want the world to know that life is deeper then our pocket book. It is larger then where we live and higher then any corporate ladder. All of the outside trappings is nothing but a mask hiding the truth distracting us from what is truly real. If we aren't careful we may live our whole life and never see the truth.

Me, I think sometimes it's my job to give a shout now and again. Kind of like the alarm clock going off at 6:00 in the morning. You don't want to hear it but you need too. You can hit the snooze button all you want but that alarm will keep coming back on so you might as well get up.

I want you to get up. I want you to reach your full potential. I don't want you to waste a second. You are so special and so important to God. You are loved beyond measure. What happened last year, last month or ten minutes ago is gone. Each second is a new beginning. You don't have to wait until New Years to make a resolution. You can do it now.

What you do is important and serves as a catalyst for all those around you. You are special, You are loved. Today this second is a new beginning. Take it and run with it. The world is waiting. The body can use the spin you can put on it... The spit and polish. Go for it live your dreams. We will be waiting.

Until We Meet Again...........God Bless

Saturday, July 10, 2010

The Battle

Do you ever get so tired you think there is no way you can possibly go on? At every turn there seems to be a battle but yet at the same time you know you are surrounded by something much bigger then yourself...God. This is the way it has been for me lately. Everything is a battle. My body grows weaker and weaker my perseverance grows thin but yet somehow I continue. Inside of me is that still small voice that says, "Keep going don't give up all will work out just as I have planned."

So I keep putting one foot in front of the other. I keep walking. I keep praying. I keep listening. Most of all I keep believing that everything God has placed in my heart will come to pass. I believe I am very close to seeing my dreams become reality and that is why the battle is heating up.

Do I think I am greater then anyone else, of course not. I'm only wanting to follow the path that God has placed in my heart nothing more. We all have a destiny outlined by God. It's up to us whether we choose to live for Him or ourselves. There lies the battle and the enemy preys on our humanity.

Here is where our love and faith come into play. Here is where we have to decide to live by what we see or what we believe. Even in my weakest moment I have come to realize that believing even without no outward sign is always the right course of action. That doesn't mean there won't be days of doubts but God knows are weaknesses and He said He would strengthen us. Who we are... how we act... does not come as a surprise to God. After all he created us.

I know by Gods grace I will get through this battle as I have come through the battles of the past. Not because I am strong but because God is gracious and I know, "The battle is not mine but Gods."

Until We Meet Again.....God Bless