Amazing Grace

How great is Gods grace. The air is thick with angels singing His praise. If you are very quiet you can hear the movement of their wings in unison. All that we are filters in and out of their praises. All the love and hope. All the glory of who He is and has always been. The direction we take is strengthened through their wings as it is filtered down in hopes we will catch a glimpse of who we really are, who we were meant to be all along.

Join me now as we catch hold of the golden glory in the wind as it falls gently to the earth. Each golden touch allows more and more to be revealed to each of us. And with more clarity the glass that is the mirror of our lives becomes less distorted. The beauty of who we are and were meant to be is brighter. The layers fall away and out of the shell emerges a person full of light, hope and love. Peace completes our souls and joy is our song. Peace to each of you this Christmas season and always.

How great is our God. What Amazing Grace. God Bless

An Original

Have you ever had one of those days when the light bulb goes on above your head and suddenly you get it. Well I had one of those this week. I have been praying for wisdom. I am so tired of all the crap that invades my mind and that has no business being there so I ask God to help me clean house and get rid of the stuff that needed to go.

I've never been competitive and all my life I've wondered why. The whole world seems to be in competition with each other. Always striving to be better then the next person. Always comparing and determining where they are on the ladder that someone decided was success. This week it hit me how can I be in competition with someone when there is no one else in the world like me. I'm in a class all by myself. There is no one to compete with!!

Oh there might be similarities but just like snowflakes there are no two of us exactly the same. I think this is what upsets me so much when people compare themselves with someone else. I want to scream "STOP!!!! It is impossible. It is a trick a distraction from the enemy to keep you from sharing your voice with the world. I hate it when people feel defeated because they feel they are not as good as someone else.

I don't care what your talent is or how many people may possess the same talent, like I have said many times there is no one who can put your spin on it. You may reach a multitude of people that no one else on earth could ever touch. The flavor that makes up you is desperately needed in the world. With out you it's like trying to make a stew with out the veggies or the meat or the seasoning!! The world needs YOU!!! Don't hide, don't be afraid, don't say I don't think I'm as good as, "NO" that is all a lie. Be You use all the wonderful things that make up you. We were designed to grow and share our talents with the world and to be the best person we can be through God; filling the world with our self and allowing others to see God in a better light.

Can you imagine if each one of us would realize this what would happen. There would be no more self confidence issues or self doubt because each one of us would realize that we completed the whole picture. We each had an important part to play and with out it the picture would be flawed.

So this week when you go comparing yourself to someone look with in and ask God "Am I being the person you created me to be? Am I handling things the way you want me to handle them? Am I a mirror of you?" Because ultimately that is what you and I should be looking at. The only source for comparison is looking into the heart of God.

So live your life free and if people look at you a little strange from time to time just ignore them and pray that someday they will get it too. It is really quite freeing not being in competition with anything or anyone. It's like always being a beautiful piece of art that just needs dusting and a bit of spit and polish from time to time. Because that is how God made you and how He sees you, an original one of a kind masterpiece.





Until We Meet Again.......God Bless

Resting In Jesus

I close my eyes as I sit quietly. With my eyes closed the bright colors of crimson red and yellow bounce across the blackness. I allow my body to relax sinking further back into the chair. My breathing becoming slow and even and my heartbeat steady. My thoughts are full of God. I continue quieting my soul and extending it heavenward. In complete peace and surrender I begin to feel the peace that only God can bring to a quiet spirit.

I reach out extending my soul further and further as I seem to go higher and higher. His presence surrounds me. My spirit begins to sing an anthem of praise. "There is no one like Him, Praise His Holy Name." I glory in His love and grace as He fills me and heals me. A sweet melody surrounds me of music and voices, and endless sea of souls, "Praise His Holy Name, Praise His Holy Name, Praise His Holy Name."

His presence is everywhere as I soak in the glory of God. I am reminded, "Where can I go from your presence." My strength is being renewed, my vision becomes clearer once again. Oh "the peace of God that passes all understanding."

Once more I will not fear what tomorrow may bring for the battle is not mine but Gods and with God I do know that all things are possible to them that believe. So I will rest in His arms of grace once again. I am assured and at peace all fear is gone. I hum softly, "Blessed assurance Jesus is mine."





Until We Meet Again...God Bless

Are We There Yet?

I have been waiting for a major breakthrough. I don't know why I can't just be happy with the status quo but I seem to always have this longing in my heart. I know there is something more that's coming. Something more I'm suppose to do. I just can't let go of it. It's like a voice calling from the distance. I keep trying to follow it hoping I am getting closer. I have a deep seeded, gut wrenching need to get there.

Sometimes I wish I could be like my husband always content with where he is, always settled. If life gets better great, if it doesn't he will handle that too, but I can't. The voice in the distance gets louder every day. I have to keep moving forward. I have to reach my destination. My eyes strain to catch a glimpse. My heart pounds faster and aches with longing. The glimpses the sign posts along the way only excite me more. Almost like a kid on their way to Disney Land who constantly asks, "Are we there yet?"

In my life my soul has scaled mountains and walls, crossed rivers and the hot desert and has spent countless hours in the darkness and in prayer. There have been times of quiet desperation and times I have screamed at the top of my lungs wanting to run away but still desperately hanging on to the dream, the voice I hear in the distance.

I figure I can't be the only one who feels this way. You must have a dream something in your heart that you are striving for that you can't let go of no matter what happens. I know we will make it. I have to believe that or why would God have given us the dream to begin with? Why would we continue to hear the voice crying from our souls trying desperately to unite with the voice in the distance.

So today I am trying to be quiet. I keep moving forward but every now and then I stop and ask like a small child, "Daddy, are we there yet?"





Until We Meet Again......God Bless

A New Dawn

Things just don't seem to be getting any easier. I sometimes feel like I'm in an old three stooges skit and I keep getting slapped over and over again. That's what it feels like in my spirit anyway. Man being a Christian is hard work. I remember way back when I first gave my life to Christ I thought everything was going to be a piece of cake. Wow was I wrong you don't see cake on the menu very often. (:0)

I thought life was hard before I became a Christian it's nothing compared to after I became a Christian. Not that I wouldn't do it again in a heart beat God has been with me every step of the way. Before I became a Christian the enemy wanted to keep me from learning the truth and now he wants to keep me from living it.

I've been listening to some wonderful teaching tapes and they reminded me that you always know you're on the right path and close to a major breakthrough when life starts heating up. Well my life is hotter then the temperature outside. It has been one major attack since the first part of June. Well I don't care what the enemy does I won't be stopped. I may be crying, kicking and screaming but I will keep moving forward.

I think the hardest thing lately has been every time I step out in a direction that I think is right I hit a wall. I am stopped dead in my tracks. It's almost like trying to walk through a maze.

I need the floodgates of heaven to open. I need the water to wash over me and soak into every pore. I am so thirsty which sounds contradictory since I have all of this inside that I want to share and there never seems to be enough people to share it with. (:0)

So here I sit writing hoping that I can say something that may touch the heart of someone else. Maybe you're going through a difficult time too. I just want you to know you are not alone. No matter what life is throwing at you right now stand firm. God won't let you down. Believe with all your heart and don't let go of the truth that lies with-in you. "We are more then conquerors through Christ who loves us." We are unbeatable and unstoppable, through the power of God.

Maybe I don't have all the answers but I'm hanging on with everything I got to the one who does. It's almost like when I was little and would fall asleep on the couch and Dad would come and pick me up and carry me to bed. I didn't need to open my eyes or see through the darkness Daddy had me and everything was alright.

I know the dawn is approaching and the light is going to come flooding through. I know life is going to be better then it ever has been before and that the latter part will outshine the former. I can see it, it's beginning to crest the far hill soon it will be here...






Until We Meet Again....God Bless

Time To Get Up

I sometimes get mad at myself because I don't handle things like someone else. And actually people have gotten angry at me. I've come to realize I need to stop beating myself up for being me. I am not like anyone else I am just me.

I'm not going to beat you over the head with your faults. Must of us are well aware of what are shortcomings are and don't need to be told. I'm going to love you and encourage you as best I can but I won't be in your face a lot. Yes, I will be praying for you but I realize in the end it is up to you to find your own way. If you need me I will be there. If you ask my advice I will honestly tell you... But don't ask if you don't want to know. (:0)

I don't need to be told that I'm special or important in your life, well maybe every once in awhile, but I don't like to be taken for granted either. It's easier for me to give then receive. Although some may think I give very little. You can't put love in a box or a mold and make it come out just one certain way. Love has many avenues and genres. What looks like love to one person may not even be noticed by someone else.

We are all unique and special in our own way and corporately we make up the body. All our differences need to be embraced and refined to enhance it.

I guess maybe I walk a little off the beaten path but that's how I like it. I like quiet and solitude. Oh, I love to laugh and have a great time too but I cherish my alone time with God most of all.

I need to be continually striving to get closer to Him. To hear His voice clearer. I want to lose myself in His presence so that the world only sees Him.

I want the world to know that life is deeper then our pocket book. It is larger then where we live and higher then any corporate ladder. All of the outside trappings is nothing but a mask hiding the truth distracting us from what is truly real. If we aren't careful we may live our whole life and never see the truth.

Me, I think sometimes it's my job to give a shout now and again. Kind of like the alarm clock going off at 6:00 in the morning. You don't want to hear it but you need too. You can hit the snooze button all you want but that alarm will keep coming back on so you might as well get up.

I want you to get up. I want you to reach your full potential. I don't want you to waste a second. You are so special and so important to God. You are loved beyond measure. What happened last year, last month or ten minutes ago is gone. Each second is a new beginning. You don't have to wait until New Years to make a resolution. You can do it now.

What you do is important and serves as a catalyst for all those around you. You are special, You are loved. Today this second is a new beginning. Take it and run with it. The world is waiting. The body can use the spin you can put on it... The spit and polish. Go for it live your dreams. We will be waiting.




Until We Meet Again...........God Bless

The Battle

Do you ever get so tired you think there is no way you can possibly go on? At every turn there seems to be a battle but yet at the same time you know you are surrounded by something much bigger then yourself...God. This is the way it has been for me lately. Everything is a battle. My body grows weaker and weaker my perseverance grows thin but yet somehow I continue. Inside of me is that still small voice that says, "Keep going don't give up all will work out just as I have planned."

So I keep putting one foot in front of the other. I keep walking. I keep praying. I keep listening. Most of all I keep believing that everything God has placed in my heart will come to pass. I believe I am very close to seeing my dreams become reality and that is why the battle is heating up.

Do I think I am greater then anyone else, of course not. I'm only wanting to follow the path that God has placed in my heart nothing more. We all have a destiny outlined by God. It's up to us whether we choose to live for Him or ourselves. There lies the battle and the enemy preys on our humanity.

Here is where our love and faith come into play. Here is where we have to decide to live by what we see or what we believe. Even in my weakest moment I have come to realize that believing even without no outward sign is always the right course of action. That doesn't mean there won't be days of doubts but God knows are weaknesses and He said He would strengthen us. Who we are... how we act... does not come as a surprise to God. After all he created us.

I know by Gods grace I will get through this battle as I have come through the battles of the past. Not because I am strong but because God is gracious and I know, "The battle is not mine but Gods."






Until We Meet Again.....God Bless

I Will Succeed

Things have been very quiet the last couple of days, kind of like the calm before the storm. I've been searching and praying. I only have one life to live and I want to try and keep it moving in the right direction. Lately that hasn't been easy. It seems like every time I take a step out I am bombarded with opposition. I don't know about you but I believe that means I am on the right track. I just wonder how long before the fog rises and the sun comes through and I see before me what I see in my heart.

God says, "that faith is believing without seeing." I can see it just not in the natural. It is imprinted on my heart like an internal photograph that hasn't faded but grows clearer with time. As each day goes by I realize the things that are real are the things that can not been seen with the eye.

I look at the world around me and realize that it is just temporal. What is inside of me will go on forever. No one can take it away from me, no one can destroy it. They can try but it is deeply rooted and entwined into all that I am no matter what my circumstances in life become.

The spirit and mind are so powerful and when God is allowed to be the head of your life you can not be stopped... Love, hope, peace, joy, dreams will go on forever. Prayers will continue to be answered long after we are gone.

I pray that my family know they are loved beyond measure. May the world know I have tried to live my life for one sole purpose to reflect Jesus Christ and the love of God. All of my earthly relationships stem from this one magnificent one. May my words be filled with kindness and be uplifting. My work show my dedication to God and may I generously share as God gives to me.

My life will not depend on the world around me but what I know is the truth that "through God we will do valiantly." Through the eyes of the world I might never be deemed a success but through the eyes of God I will have succeeded and completed my journey.




Until We Meet Again....God Bless

Today I Was Invisable

How do we become invisible? I didn't use to be invisible. I know once you could see me. Maybe people projected onto me what they thought I should be and between them and myself I got buried. Buried in some truths and half truths, peoples expectations, as well as, my own pain and sorrow, like a ton of earth over me.

I became a daughter, granddaughter, wife, mother, friend, worker, coworker, the list is endless. All of these people, all of these parts I have played. Where am I? If I am the sum total of all my parts how do they all fit? Where is the window that allows the world and myself to see me once again. I am more then the roles I play. More then the labels that society has encrypted upon me. Take me back to the beginning. I need to see me again.......



I feel the dirt beneath my fingernails as I try to claw myself to the surface to the light once again. The dirt covers my eyes and I can taste it and feel the dampness on my skin. I finally reach the surface. The brightness of the light shines upon me. It seems to be coming from everywhere. I hear the laughter of small children and feel the soft grass beneath my feet. I hear the wind blowing through the trees. There are flowers everywhere. They see me, everything sees me because of the light. There is joy on all their faces and their laughter is like a beautiful melody going on forever. I am seen. Maybe not in this world but I am seen and it is beautiful....



I realize once again that it is not important if the world sees me only that God sees me. To God I am never invisible...There is never any confusion. I know that this world is not my home. I am just here for a short while. I have seen a glimpse of home again and I am full of light. I am visible once again. My spirit soars for my hope has been renewed and I will continue the journey.



Until We Meet Again.......God Bless

Changing Seasons

I've been thinking a lot about changes and seasons in our lives. Some people we try so hard to hold onto but they still seem to drift away. I finally realized that's alright. It's like trying to hold onto a snowflake. The relationship changes just as the snowflake melts and becomes water. Know matter how hard we try to hold on to them they quickly seem to run through our fingers.

I have met a lot of wonderful people that have been in my life for just a season or two. They played a vital role in my journey and I will always remember them.

God pretty much has to slap me up side of the head from time to time to let me know a season is over. (:0) I still keep trying to make it work and He is saying no it's time to move on. That's what He seems to be doing lately. He is being very persistent I keep hearing, "I've been trying to tell you it's a new season can't you see it. Old things have passed away and all things have become new." But I get use to the old, the familiar; after all sometimes change hurts and growth is never easy.

Today I have decided to embrace this new season in my life. I can't wait to see what will happen and who God will bring into my life. I am not going to be afraid. I will have no regrets. I will love with an open heart and an open hand always allowing those I meet on my path walk beside me freely as God directs. There are no strings attached to my love... No giant expectations that have to be met. Freely God has given me His love and freely I will pour it out to others.

Change is good for us. If we are changing we are moving. I plan to keep moving down this road God prepared for me. I may stop and rest from time to time. May pick a flower and enjoy a sunset but like a child I will eventually make it home.



Until We Meet Again......God Bless

Making A Memorable Moment

It was a beautiful sunny Sunday afternoon. All the family had gathered at my Grandparents house. Their house was small so we had made our way out to the side yard with chairs and blankets. The adults were talking and the kids were running and playing. It was a lazy wonderful day that I never wanted to forget.

I remember laying on my belly on a home made quilt of my Grandmothers. I lifted my head and stared out before me. I had such a peace and I wanted to remember the day forever. I pulled up a blade of grass and put it between my thumbs and stared at it trying to burn it in my memory. I kept repeating, "I want to remember today forever."

I don't know why I thought I needed to remember that one day out of so many previous ones but for some reason it was important to me. I couldn't tell you the exact date on the calendar or even my exact age, although I believe I was eight at the time, only the feelings I had about that day. I don't think I have ever felt that way again.

For one sunny afternoon all the cares of the world drained completely away and left only the feeling of belonging, acceptance and love. All those feelings pure and untainted from this world. I believe for a brief moment I experience a touch of heaven.

I think about the warmth of Gods radiant love, the feeling of acceptance and knowing you are home. Having completed your journey with the weariness of the world left behind forever.

I believe someday I will experience that feeling again and it will not just last for one sunny Sunday afternoon but for eternity. I look forward to that day. My heart is filled with promise because of Jesus and one sunny Sunday afternoon so long ago.





Until We Meet Again.......God Bless

Jesus Is The Light

I was in the hospital this week. I usually end up having to be in at least once a year. It doesn't bother me as much as it use too. Maybe that's why God gave me a job in the hospital so I wouldn't be so afraid. I was a bit unnerved at one point though so I got out my pen and paper and started writing to Jesus.

This is what I always do when things seem to be getting the best of me. I write and tell Him everything that is bothering me and how much I love Him and depend on Him. When I am finished writing I start a new paragraph and begin it with my first name and wait for an answer in my spirit. Then I start writing what He is saying to me.

I really loved what he had to say. He told me, " Don't worry about tomorrow, tomorrow will take care of itself. Just stay close to me. Together we will always win. Enjoy the view..... Believe with your whole heart. Expect much and you will receive more. Forge ahead even when the way seems hard there is a light to brighten your way. I am that light. I am that hope. Expect....Don't be afraid. Release your fears let them go there is no room for them in your life. There is a shield around you. A caravan of hope follows you filled with everything you will ever need on your journey. Release your faith. Bring light into the world."

So I decided to share this with you tonight hoping that it might bring some peace and light into your night as it did mine. I know how much Jesus loves you.

I can honestly say that nothing can stop me from loving and sharing Jesus. It doesn't matter how I am feeling or what my circumstance's are because it's not about me. Does that mean I do everything I should? No... It just means I have found that each time I step out regardless of my opposing feelings I am strengthened and blessed for it. So I can say boldly there is no room for fear and darkness in my life because Jesus is the light of my life.




Until We Meet Again........God Bless

Sing Your Song

I was sitting on the patio last evening at just about dusk. It was a lovely evening. As I was sitting there I heard two birds singing. They seemed to be almost talking back and forth it was beautiful. Out of the hundreds of birds that are in and out of our yard every day only two remained and shared their voice's at the end of the day.

There are millions of birds but only two sang making it a memorable evening. Would I have still sat on the patio if the birds were not singing? Yes. Would the sun continued to set? Yes but something beautiful would have been missing.

It reminded me of you and I and how our voices need to be heard. I believe we are heading for the evening of this world. There are millions of people sitting and waiting not realizing what they are missing. What they are needing to turn an ordinary night into an extraordinary one.

Allow the light of God to come through you in an amazing way. Don't be afraid to speak, to share your heart, your voice and make the world a very special place. Your voice may be the one to restore hope and beauty into a life that is torn and bleeding. There isn't anyone like you. God wants to use you in an incredible way. Share the love of Jesus the world is waiting.

"And now abide faith, hope, love these three; but the greatest of these is love."




Until We Meet Again.....God Bless

Start Your Engines

There is a movement a stirring in the atmosphere. I have had to stop many times last night and today and listen. The atmosphere is charged. It's almost like things are being put into position. A great transition is about to happen. I believe it is going to be the biggest outpouring we have ever witnessed. Get Ready! Get Ready! Get Ready!

I don't know about you but my antennas are up and I am majorly expecting. All frequencies are wide open. I'm listening God! I'm looking! There is such an excitement growing. It's like God has said no more! My power is greater then anything. Greater then your fear, greater then your sadness, greater then your sickness and pain. Dare to believe...Dare to expect...take the blinders off, take the earplugs out, clean off your glasses and see the salvation of the Lord!!!

Everybody start your engines! I believe we start our engines by stepping out in prayer believing. Even if it is only the size of a mustard seed God said He could do great things with it. Faith can move mountains! Blind eyes will see! Deaf ears will hear! Marriages will be restored! The sick will recover! Your finances will be reclaimed by God and all of this and more will be restored to you!

I'm daring to believe. I am expecting because it's here now and I intend to reach out and claim it all in the name of Jesus. Are you with me!! Feel the power of the Lord as it explodes in the atmosphere. There has never been such a time as this don't miss it. Look up and believe for what God has set in motion no man can stop. Today is the day. Today is the beginning of the greatest adventure of your life. Today is for you. Reach out and dare to believe.





Until We Meet Again........God Bless

An Heir

Brace yourself I'm not crazy, well no crazier then anyone else. (:0) I guess God is using another avenue to get my attention. I wanted to share it with you. Right before I woke up yesterday morning I heard something I thought was so profound. This is what I heard, "As an heir it is not what you are willing to give up or not give up it's what you are willing to do."

I thought, that's awesome. I mean if someone leaves us a fortune in their will and we are not willing to take it we could live the rest of our days as paupers when we actually could be living as kings.

I realized this is what happens when we aren't willing to accept all that God has for us. It's all there waiting for us if we will just step up and take it but how many of us live way below our potential because we don't step up.

God is looking for people to work through. People who know the truth of who they really are, "Joint Heirs with Christ." Are you bored? Weary from the battle? Ready for some adventure? I dare you to come a little closer. Step up and accept all that God has for you. You can change the world and turn it on its ear. The impact will be like a ripple affect sending shock waves across the globe. You will see the life that God intended you to live created before your very eyes, as you accept and walk in the promises of God.

God is waking me out of a long slumber. The slumber we are lured into by this world and the battle it takes to live it. It dulls our senses keeping us away from the truth. It's time to wake up and step up and be who we are in Christ. Today I choose to be a child of God in every area of my life. I will not be any less then who I am in Christ.

No more will I live in fear and dread. I will be strong and courageous. I will look for the best and expect the best for myself and all those I love. My hands are extended as God places in them all that He has predestined for me from the beginning. My heart is full, my step is light, and my confidence is high, because today I step up and take my rightful place.






Until We Meet Again.........God Bless

You Are What You Speak

You've heard people say you are what you eat well my philosophy is you are what you speak.

I spoke to a person this week that really got me thinking. This person went on and on about how sick they were naming all their illness's. How they had been sick for several years and they couldn't seem to figure it out.

I realized this person was destroying themselves. They were consumed by how they felt. They didn't have one positive word to say about their self until I added a few of my own. Their mind had become a gun and their words the bullets.

I don't say this lightly. I've went through the same thing but it was only after I stopped talking about how I felt and began talking positive that my world began to change.

I remember the old saying, "sticks and stones may break my bones but words will never hurt me." Actually that's a crock. (:0) Yes sticks and stones will break our bones but words can destroy our soul which in turn will destroy our body.

What we think comes out in our attitude and our words. What we speak happens. It's like a self fullfilled prophesy. I don't mean this to sound crazy like if I go out and say to my old 1999 Grand Am start and it will start but we first think it and then we do it. I'm thinking I need to go out and start my car and then I go and use the key to start it.

What happens to the person who is told all their life they are dumb or ugly? Even though that may not be true it gets embedded into them. Just as the person who is told they are smart and beautiful.

We can make a life or break a life with our words. It's time to take some serious consideration as to what we are thinking and saying each day.

We need to remember the example of our Father. He spoke the world into existence. He used His words to create life. We too can speak our world into existence and create a better life.

God tells us to think about things that are good and pure. He told us that because He knew it would nurture our souls. In turn we would be happier and healthier... Creating change in the world around us.

I don't know about you but I'm tired of all the negativity in this world. I certainly don't want to add to the pile any longer. The darkness in this world is up to our necks. We are mired in it but we can still speak. When we speak out all the things God told us to think on I know the darkness will begin to recede. We will slowly be free and able to walk in the light.

And as I've told you many times I'm all for the light. How about you? (:0)















Until We Meet Again.......God Bless

It Is Here

I believe we are living in the greatest time that man has ever seen. I am expecting to see things that will astound us. God is pouring out an anointing on his people. It is time to gather together like never before to pray like never before for our family... our friends.. our pastors... our country... the world.

God is still on the throne people...You want to change nations and shake up the world? Then I encourage you to gather together and pray. Whether it's on your lunch hour in the quietness of your cars or office, in your living rooms, or at your church alters, "Pray!"

I've been praying this morning and one thing God has chosen to show me is that people have not changed. The core of who we are is the same today as it was from the beginning. Our surroundings have changed. Technology has changed. We have cars, cell phones and computers to name a few but we as people are still the same.

We all get afraid, we get happy and sad. We get tired and sick. We get discouraged and depressed. Sometimes our faith is strong, sometimes it's weak. Sometimes we are filled with such love, sometimes we are angry and filled with bitterness. These are the same feelings since the fall of man.

I don't know about you but I am personally at a place where it is a constant battle to do and be what I know is right. It is getting harder and harder to live in this world. This is why we have to strengthen our prayer muscles. We have to grab hold of the truth like a pit bull and not let go know matter what happens.

Don't isolate yourself know matter what you may be going through. Share it with God and find at least one other person to share it with and to pray with you. I know this can sometimes be hard. Allowing someone to see us for who we really are is never easy. The enemy delights in keeping us isolated. He feels the more alone we are the quicker our light will go out, our faith will diminish and we will not complete our journey.

When I talk about alone, you may be in a crowd of people from morning until night but still be alone. You continue to be what everyone expects but on the inside you are screaming that someone see's you for who you really are and what you are really going through.

I know there are tons of untapped resources and talents in the hearts of Gods people. Don't be afraid to step out even if you think it appears to be small. Your reaching out could be the catalyst that is needed to start something so great that it could change the world and end up helping millions of people. You never know you may be standing next to someone who has your answer.

It's a new day. We have never been here before. The latter rain is falling. Trust yourself enough not to be afraid anymore, not to miss your moment, your time. This coming Resurrection Sunday may some old dreams come to light and may your heart be renewed with hope. Remember God did all of this for you and He is the same yesterday, today and forever.


"For God so loved the world He gave his only begotten son that whosoever believeth in him should not perish but have everlasting life."


Until We Meet Again..... God Bless

Hope

This has been another hard week for me. I have been sick all week. Plus some other trials I won't mention but one thing I know for sure God has been with me through it all.

Hope fills my heart as I write this tonight. Hope is the energy that fuels the flame in me to keep going one more day. Hope says maybe tomorrow I'll get to where I need to be. Maybe tomorrow I'll see my dream birthed and in my hand. Maybe tomorrow when I round that bend I will run right into my answer.

I know I've been down lately. I have been very tired and now I have been sick but the good thing is when I get this low God always shows up stronger then ever. I think it's because I run out of my own strength. I have no more energy to try to control my life or the situation. If He doesn't show up there will be no more hope, not one more step. He loves to show up. He loves reaffirming that He is everything He said He is.

Just as we love reaching out to our children when they are in need, so much more does God love reaching out to us. He is a shoulder to cry on, a hand to hold, a listening ear, a friend, a father, as well as, a loving savior.

I have gotten upset many times because I would talk and talk to God but I still felt all alone. I thought if I could see Him I wouldn't be so lonely. This week I realized if I could see Him like I see you and me He couldn't be with me like He is now. I couldn't hide under the shadow of His wings. I couldn't feel Him in my heart or hear Him whispering in my ear.

I don't know about you but sometimes it takes almost a lifetime for something to get embedded in my heart. I may repeat it a million times before I really see it. When I finally get that "AHA, moment" and realize, "Oh that's what He meant." All this time I have been wanting him to be something He is not. And this week I finally realized I'm so grateful He is not what I wished He would be but He is who He is.

How I love him. He absorbs every pore of my being. He is in every thought and every breath. He leaves Himself behind every time I reach out and touch someone. He leaves his footprints behind every time I walk out in faith. His voice is heard and touches the soul of everyone I try to console or love. And what is so amazing is that it's not just through me but through each one of us.

We leave Him everywhere. We leave the scent of His being, of who He really is, by giving our life to Him and then living it everyday. It doesn't matter what our talent is or our job. It doesn't matter if we are male or female or what our age happens to be because we each have our own personal walk with Him. He will use each one of us if we let Him.

I can live without a lot of things in this life but I can not live without the hope that God breathes into me everyday. I can't live with out Him.

Open yourself up to Him and hold on with everything you've got because He is holding on to you.





Until we meet again. God Bless

The Possibility Maker

What a week I've had. Why is it when you think you are doing everything right everything goes wrong. Doors slam in your face. People treat you badly. Your car breaks down. You get sick. You make one mistake after another at work. Do you know even the batteries died in my blood pressure monitor. What's that tellin' me. Whoa!! I'm not even going there. I'm not ready to leave just yet. I'm ticked but the ticker is still working.

Well I've come to the conclusion, I must be doing something exactly right if I wasn't the enemy wouldn't be working overtime to make my life miserable.

I don't have all the answers to days like these but I know we have to hang on with everything we've got. I believe when we have these days it means our breakthrough is very close and the enemy knows it. He knows once we get that break through there will be no stopping us.

I heard a preacher say once that the farther God stretches you the further you will fly when he lets you go. I think I should be a billionaire and land somewhere in the Middle East or in Gods lap depending on which direction I fly when he lets me go. (:0)

Everything I do is wrapped around God. Everything I say everywhere I go all my talent and knowledge, everything is his. I can't remember a time when it hasn't been this way but I'm going to be honest I am growing weary. I really need a breakthrough. I need to see some of the dreams God has placed in my heart come to pass not only for me but for my family and for you.

I need a refill. I've kept my cup. I have no intentions of throwing it away but it's getting empty. We give so much of ourselves and sometimes we just need a refill.

That's where I'm at right now. I need to be around a lot of people pouring into my life for a season. Believing in my dreams and the vision God has put in my life. I'm dry and dusty. My feet need washed and I need a few loaves and fishes so I can feed thousands.

When I began this blog I was on a quest to find me. Well as I've told you before to find me I need to help more of you. I need your help. I need your prayers, I need you to listen to what God is placing on your hearts and I need you to follow your dreams.

We've all got to work harder at letting our lights shine. Now don't get me wrong I know we've all been trying but we have to push through the pain. Like a runner pushing through that invisible wall he hits. And like a runner sometimes we need a crowd to cheer us on so we will keep our eyes on the prize.

We have to be driven. We know that with God all things are possible. In the natural it may not look that way but we serve a God who loves to take the seemingly impossible and make it a reality. So invest in a future with dividends. That's what I'm banking on, "God The Possibility Maker."

Until we meet again. God Bless.

What Now?

It has been a quiet week in my soul. I don't do very well with quiet times. I like it when God is talking so fast I can hardly keep up with Him. I have a hard time with the silence. It's like you are just sitting tapping your foot waiting for only, "God Knows What."


In these quiet times I can only do what God told me to do from the beginning, "Keep speaking into peoples lives. Continue to tell them how much He loves them." As long as I am doing that I guess I will always be on the right track."


I'm just one of those people who always needs this long list of things to do. I need direction and of course a time frame. I don't think that's too much to ask.(:0) Then I am reminded that God's timing is not necessarily my timing and what may look small in my eyes is actually big in God's.


I can't help it I have so much inside me. I can't seem to get it to flow out. It seems to be only trickling out. I guess it's kind of like a hole in the wall of a dam; sooner or later the water will break down the resistance of the wall and all that water will be flowing freely; but I'm getting old here, Lord I'm running short on days. (:0)


I guess I will keep on keep en' on and continue to wait for further orders. Of course a little begging is good for the soul, "Come on God I've been faithful. I've read the game book over and over. Gee I've even got the best plays memorized. I work out, my prayer muscles are in great shape. I'm a good distance runner. Come on Lord put me in the game. I can do it."


Not bad, what do you think God? Only silence......... I know I'll just have to wait and believe. I know he won't stay silent forever. I'll wear him down. I can make enough noise all of heaven will be begging him to give me a new assignment, just you wait and see.......






Hi God, Why do ducks say quack? How high is heaven? How long does it take to make a raindrop? Was grass always green? How did you come up with the giraffe? Did you really have to make spinach? God why didn't you make twinkie trees?...............................................................

God, I hear you laughing........





Until we meet again. God Bless

One Little Word

I was reading through some old journals this morning, which my "Bestest Friend" told me to do. Ok, since we are friends, I'll spill my guts, I was feeling down wondering if what I had been believing God for was really going to happen. There I said it; see I told you before I was needy.


Think about it, God and I have been talking about this for years. I mean I have an internal photograph for heaven sakes. Maybe I can't hold it in my hands yet but that's tangible this is eternal; I mean really, I need to get a grip.


Well, I came across one seemingly simple little word over and over again. "Believe" That was Gods answer time and time again. "Just believe Sandy, just believe." Seems simple enough especially when I stopped to consider where I've been.


I'm not even suppose to be here. My Mom was unable to carry a child but here I am. She carried me all nine months. She was in horrible pain and would fall on her knees crying and praying that God would protect me and allow me to be born.

I weighed five pounds when I was born. Mom had to contantly turn me from side to side like a pig on a spit because I would turn blue. To look at me now you would never believe I started life that small. I laugh and tell people, "there was no room in the womb but once I hit the air, Whoa!!" (:0)


I think about the trauma's that I went through before the age of 5. I was stung all over my face by a nest of yellow jackets. I'm allergic to bees. I survived. I remember getting a little cut on my knee that Mom faithfully took care of but still the infection developed to my bones causing severe pain and complications. I'm still here.


As I grew older everything seemed to come in pairs. When I got the measles I also got tonsillitis. I guess I took the whole two by two thing a bit too far. I could go on and on it was as if someone was really angry because I was here.

As an adult I was told I was in a thyroid storm and that I had one heart attack and was on the verge of another. There's that pair thing again, I survived at age 50 with the heart of a teenager, No surgery and no sign of any heart attacks. "I got that straight from the Doctors mouth." "Clean and pristine." God is Great.

Miracle after Miracle, You would think I would not have trouble with that little word "Believe," but I still struggle with it...Over and over again.


What makes that word so difficult? Why don't I take it for what it is? Why do I keep laying it down. I guess it's kind of like trying to buy a sweater at the store. I pick it up.. I lay it down.... I try it on... I look at it from all angles... I like how it fits... The price is right... Why can't I just buy it? You see that's where the problem lies, I could buy that sweater for you anytime.


I can believe all day and all night for you. How to keep that little word active for me in my life that's where I get into trouble. I guess maybe that's another thing I took a little too far, "you know the one about putting others before yourself."


Just like in the Bible and just like my "Bestest Friend" reminded me this week, I need to go back and remind myself of all the things God has promised me, as well as, all the things He has brought me through.


I use to think that it was God and me; I could walk this road alone but I now know that everyone needs someone to cover their back. Even Jesus picked twelve disciples. God made us to be there for one another, to hold up each others hands in battle.


So what about it friend? I promise to hold up your hands. Will you hold up mine?










God Bless. Until We Meet Again.

God Is In The Driveway

I've been deep in thought this week. There is a stirring that can't be put into words. All I can tell you is my heart is full of God. His love and power grows thicker around us.

I know a lot of you are tired. Some of you are at the point of giving up. You've done everything you can think of to make things change but nothing has worked. Maybe you're thinking "My breakthrough is never going to happen. My life is never going to change." Let me tell you with all the force I can muster "Yes it is." You are so close; now is not the time to throw in the towel. Don't you dare give up. You are closer then you think.


The enemy wants you to give up that's why so much has been coming at you. He thinks if he pulls out all the stops you won't make it to the finish line. I'm telling you, "You can make it!" Actually I'm not telling you but God is telling you, "You Can Make It." I'm just the mouth piece.


All you women who have given birth know how hard it is just before delivery. Those contractions are steady. They are almost unbearable but that's when you know that baby is almost here; so it is with your breakthrough. God has seen every tear and heard every prayer.

He has commanded an army of angels to be dispatched on your behalf. They have been hand picked just for you and your circumstance. God has been working on your behalf behind the scenes. Like a stage being set for a play, rehearsals are over, "It's Show Time."


Think of it this way, God has pulled in your driveway, He just hasn't made it into the house yet.








Until we meet again. God Bless

Sure God But What's Rain

I am so tired I feel like my fingers are super bonded to my keyboard and my backside has been permanently glued to my desk chair. I have been writing almost non stop for the last four and a half days. I have had very little sleep. The few hours I have been able to sleep I have been stretched out on the chaise in the study. My legs and feet are swollen so badly I can hardly bend them. My husband said he never saw anything like it. I mean picture it, my size 9 1/2 feet swelled up looking like half inflated beach balls, then again don't picture it. What can I say I am only a dainty demure woman on the inside. Don't tell me God doesn't have a sense of humor.


But I don't care. I needed to get this book finished. What brought on this urgency you might ask? A stirring in my spirit that is hard to explain because I don't understand it myself. The closest thing that I can come to is when God told Noah to built the ark. I mean, Noah must have said, "sure God whatever you say but what's rain?"


I am sixty years old and I have never experienced anything like this before. This book was on my to do list to be finished last year. God gave me the plot in about thirty minutes then I had the dreams. God and I are pretty tight. Not because I'm special but because I'm very needy. His voice isn't hard to recognize when you listen as hard as I do. I'm always just checking to see if he is still there. It's almost like a child in bed at night calling to Mom and Dad. "Hey Dad it's me how about a tall glass of water." I am always thirsty.


I was dragging my feet (I guess now I am literally dragging them) even though I knew I was suppose to write a trilogy. A trilogy and I didn't even have the first one done. Hey don't give me that look. I'm writing on blind faith here.


I haven't a clue what God is going to do with this book or the next two. One thing I can tell you they are saturated with Him. It is almost like someone poured a pitcher of oil all over them. This is God's baby I am just trying hard to see that it grows into maturity and is ready to go out into the world.


I'm not the type to tell you God said, unless I believe God said. None of this is about me. I am just a willing vessel hoping to be used by God. Well, alright, begging to be used by God. Because that's where I find my true joy and happiness; when I am smack dab in the middle of something he has asked me to do.


God is so close that when I breathe I feel as if I am breathing in his very essence. Every movement is in line with him. Does that mean I do everything right. No, unfortunately, it just means I am willing to give it my best shot.

I'm kind of like that kid on the baseball team with a lot of heart but just so so talent. He's so sweet ya just gotta give him a chance. You never know he may hit a home run.













Until we meet again. God Bless

What About Me

Sometimes it's hard to understand why some of our prayers don't seem to get answered. Why we don't get to do the things our hearts yearn to do. Why do we have to strive so hard? Why does it seem it is always some one else who gets the breaks? I finally came to the realization that if I had gotten everything that I thought I should have I wouldn't be the person I am today. I wouldn't care as deeply, I wouldn't have worked as hard or reached as high, striving to give others what I so long for myself. I wouldn't have learned to depend on God so much. I also realized God is concerned with making me into the person I should be, not necessarily the person I had envisioned.


But if I am to be honest there have been times in my life I have asked God, "Can't I just have a suddenly?" You know, one of those moments that has catapulted you into your hearts dream. One thing I do know is when I stop trying so hard things do come together. When I relax and just let God be God that's always when the answer comes --the breakthrough happens. Sometimes the harder I try the more I screw it up. I just want it to happen so bad, as the old saying goes, I can't see the forest for the trees.

Some days it is really hard. You know the days I'm talking about, the ones when you feel like all you've gotten done is beat your head against a wall. God keeps telling me not to give up. Every time we feel like we are beating our head against the wall he is removing a few more bricks --and pretty soon, if we don't give up, that wall will come crumbling down, and we will have a clear path.

Sometimes the world throws us a lot of crap to sift through but that's ok, God just uses it to make our path way a little greener. You see, with God the grass is greener after He shines his light on it. So don't get discouraged just keep in mind the more crap the lusher the path. (:0)
























Until we meet again, God Bless.

God Is With Us

Tomorrow is the last day of January 2010. I've been doing a lot of thinking. Mostly trying to hear Gods voice in the mist of this turmoil called life. To feel his presence, to see the light of his love, even in the darkest times.

Sometimes I think I try too hard. I need to relax and realize God is here, right here with me. I don't always have to feel His presence, hear His voice, or have that stirring in my spirit. I need nothing but to accept the fact that He is always with me. No matter what I'm going through, no matter where I am, He is with me. After all God is not about feeling, He is about truth and the truth is He is here always. I love him so much. I could never make it with out him.

I'm going to tell you a secret, I'm really pretty weak. My strength has been gone for years. So many trials. So, I'm standing today only because of Him. I keep going everyday, only because of Him. My family and friends are wonderful but as much as I love them it would not be enough to keep me going.

I owe everything to Him. Each breath I take is His. I am completely in love with my beautiful Saviour. He is my strength and portion. He is always there to lift me up. He always picks me up brushes me off and sets me on my path again. His love sustains me through every storm this life can bring.

So I guess I just wanted you to know that He loves you just the same. No matter what you might be facing this cold January night He is with you. Hold fast to that truth above everything.

Until we meet again. God Bless

Winter Blaghs

Well, I'm back again. How's things going today? I've been going through a few rough patches.How about you? It seems like every winter is hard for me. Do you like winter? I need lots of sunshine. I would not make it any place that had extra long winters. My oldest son laughs and tells me "Mom, you sure you can't get a few more lights in the house." What can I say I need light!


Seriously though do you feel like you're just somewhere in-between in the winter. I mean, it's a good time to get all those things done that you don't want to waste your time on in the spring but with out the sunshine you just can't seem to get motivated. Then when spring comes you don't want to take the time to do all the things you should have done in the winter because you want to enjoy the spring. It's crazy.


Motivation is suppose to be a state of mind not a feeling. I think parts of my mind are definitely in the dark when it's winter. Well, some people might say parts of my mind have never seen the light. (:0)


It's just too hard to imagine that spring is around the corner when it's snowing or just plain dark and dreary. Everything, including me, looks so lifeless in the winter. My smile doesn't come as easily, kind words too easily can be replaced by not so nice ones. I don't want to go anywhere. I just want to hibernate like an old bear. As I am writing this I heard a bird chirping outside my window. I am going to pretend it was a Robin. My first step in positive reinforcement thinking.


One more week and January will be over. I would like to think I could accomplish something before the months end! I did clean out a dresser that had not been touched since my youngest was in Jr. High. Oh, did I mention he is now 26. So, I guess that counts as a small accomplishment.


I have been working on a book I started last year. I have had writers block but I have managed to get a few more pages done. Hopefully about 50 more will wrap up the first draft. According to my goals it should have been done by the end of the 2009. Hey, I'm not too far off target. I covered myself it was not only on my one year goal but my 10 year as well.



Well, I guess I've complained enough for one day. I know spring is coming. There goes that bird again. Confirmation! Hang in there, I know you will make it too. One of these days the sun will shine bright, the Robins will be singing and I will be complaining about all the dust and spots on the carpet that I will be able to see so clearly. Hmm, maybe I should get busy.









God Bless until next time.

Victory In Jesus

I've been doing a lot of thinking lately. About this year, the promises it holds, the ability to move ahead and step out into that internal photograph we all have in our heart. I feel like never before that each day of this year is jam packed with possibilities and promise. Please don't let it pass you by. God is tugging at your heart. Whispering in your ear. Please listen. What you have to contribute to this world is far beyond anything you could ever hope or imagine. You just need to get in line with God. Allow him into your life and watch what amazing things develop.

The ups and downs of this life are almost more then we can bear but I promise you there is an answer. That answer is Jesus. Not religion, not a denomination, it's Jesus. A relationship with him. A real one on one walking in the mud and in the sunshine relationship. Through the good times and the bad. It's not about your parents relationship, your spouse or your friends. It's about your personal relationship with him.

A lot of people try to put him in a box and tell you that you have to be this or that before you can be accepted by Jesus. That's not true. Jesus accepts you right where you are right in the middle of your mess. You don't have to get your life all pulled together before you can ask him into it. It's not about how many times you have attended church this week, how many hours you have spent in prayer or how many good deeds you have done, although all of that is good. It's about loving Jesus and Jesus loving you.

Don't be afraid to step out of the boat. Take a chance. You have nothing to lose and everything to gain. The world lies before you. Take his hand. Don't be afraid. Your life will never be the same. You will never be sorry.

I know sometimes I sound like a stuck record playing over and over but I know the reality of Jesus and that personal relationship. I have seen him work miracle after miracle in my life. Has it been hard? Sure, but I wouldn't even have a life if it was not for him. I"m not ashamed to admit that I need him every second, of every minute, of every hour, of every day. I can't do it with out him. I wouldn't want to try. He is the first thing I think of in the morning when I wake and the last thing I think of before I fall asleep at night. Everything I do is with him in my heart and mind. Yes, I screw up at times but it's not like I wake up in the morning and decide, "Today I'm going to screw up," I'm human and it happens. He knows our weakness's they are no surprise to him. He is our strength.

We can do all things through Christ who strengthens us. After all he hung the stars and the moon. He spoke the world into existence. With God the impossible becomes the possible. Stop carrying the load, I know how heavy it is, give it to Jesus.

If you have already given your life to him. Hang in there. Remember there can never be a victory with out a battle.



Until we meet again. God Bless

I Met Me

Hi! How are you? God has been telling me a lot of things since our last talk. The most exciting thing is I got to meet Me. I really did. Now you have to understand my relationship with God is awesome. We constantly talk and he has been by my side forever but I can honestly say this is the first time I have met me.

It was amazing He showed me that all my life intertwined and I was exactly where I needed to be. My job, my family, my photography everything is who I am. I got to see me not as the world sees me but as He sees me. It was wonderful. I wanted to laugh and cry at the same time. All of a sudden I didn't seem so lonely or insignificant anymore. Now I know what you are thinking, "if you and God are so close why did you feel lonely or insignificant?" If I am to be honest, I guess it was because it is easy to believe God loves you and you are special but sometimes it's just hard for me to believe it for myself.

The days ahead are going to be like an unveiling. Each day clearer then the day before. With clarity comes strength and wisdom. This is not just for me but it is for you too. He showed me that this is a year like no other year. He has been telling me this for months. He showed me that if you only dare to believe to reach out to him that breakthrough you have been praying for will happen.

God is in the restoration business. It brings him great joy to restore your life. I know I have told you in other posts to expect the unexpected to believe the seemingly unbelievable but it has never been truer then it is this year.

It is extremely hard to find the words to explain to you that this year is different. This is the year that your breakthrough will happen if only you reach out in faith to Him. I guess one of the ways I could describe it is, think about a Father who went out and bought a ton of presents for his children. The house was full of them. They covered the stairs and the tables and chairs. He called them, sent them letters but they would not come to see him. All the presents sat untouched. They were all waiting, if only his children would come to him. The Father grew very sad. He wanted so desperately to give the gifts away to his children but they never came.

The path has been made clear for you. I am not saying that in the world there are not obstacles but God is able to lift you over each one. He will take your hand and guide you safely to your destination. Your own special purpose. Don't give up. You are only a breath away from seeing the greatest day of your life.

Sometimes our life is like winter. It seems like everything is dark, nothing but hard days, but then spring arrives. That's when you realize that winter was only preparing you for the wonderful days of spring. Hang in there and believe like you have never believed before. Your spring is coming.



God Bless until we meet again.

Happy New Year

A new year begins. I feel the power of God surging through my veins like a raging river. There isn't anything we can not accomplish this year with God. God has thrown open the doors and windows of heaven. A mighty cleansing is falling like never before. This is His year to show up and show off.

Listen for His voice. Feel His presence. Follow His lead. God wants to use you in a mighty way. To show you all that you are capable of and all that you were created for. He doesn't want you to hide in the shadows any longer but to step out into the light.

Open up your arms, embrace it. Allow God to fill you until it is pouring over. There isn't anything too big for God. There isn't anything too small in your life that He doesn't care about or want to be a part of.

We all tend to look to our spouse, our children, our friends and although we are blest for having them, only God can fill the void. Only God knows how each of us feel deep down inside. You know, that place, that agony, we can't seem to make anyone else understand. God sees and understands.

This year allow God to reign in your life. Allow Jesus into your heart. Let go of the past start anew. Don't drag the old baggage into this new year. You have carried it around long enough. It's time to let it go. The past is just that, the past. It can't be changed or rewritten. Think about it as if you are walking and the only path you have is in front of you. Once you take a step the step you left behind is gone. It is just air, there is no solid ground. Just keep moving.

The parts of your past that you may run into in the future will work out once you allow God full reign. God will always shine a light on the path before you. Always help you up the steep hills and down again; over the rugged terrain and the sandy beaches. There will be laughter and there will be tears but always, always, there will be peace.

God be with you my friend this new year and always.

Until we meet again. God Bless